I did the happy dance today xD

I've had a pretty rough month and words can never describe the kinda crap I had to go through emotionally and everything. Basically, Im a train wreck and thanks to Chantel, she actually helped me go through it in a small way....even if it was a small way, I still managed to get through it. Just cant sleep though cos I just cant.....and its almost 3am and i just had a bowl of instant noodles....so yeah....

I did the happy dance today xD

Hi blog,
Its been a while since I've written and many things have happened since...well, since I last wrote. The highlight of everything was the 5 straight days that I worked and lost alot of sleep and almost bruised myself badly from hitting things out of frustration. I guess stress does alot of things to me and it tends to make me go a little insane and totally over-come by anger. So, when Im angry, I'll do anything that will just ease my burning fire. Even if it means to inflict pain. Hey, I told you stress and anger make me do things. Right now, Im okay. I just got David worried cos I started a conversation with "Hi. I hate my life".......who in their right mind wont get freaked?

Its been almost 2 weeks since school started and I have missed 3 classes in total. My reason? No energy to pay attention and too tired to care. Tomorrow, I have two classes. Both I missed on Tuesday and Wednesday. Im so gonna be screwed. But whats new, hey?

I find myself being more reserved with the people around me and I find myself not as enthusiastic about the things that really excite me and get my blood pumping. My managers, friends and colleagues have told me the same thing. meh. Maybe Im just bored with life.

My dear dear dear Haseena will be home in 6 days. Darlin' I'll be waiting at the gate for ye.

I did the happy dance today xD

I did the happy dance today xD

I did a very bad thing today. I bought 3 CDs and a bag. Actually, I bought 4 CDs but that 4th was bought based on a hidden agenda. She really wanted it and was torn between two CDs. So, I catwalked my way down to the "R" aisle, returned one of my Ataris CDs and took that certain CD and added to my pile of rock heaven. After paying the heavy bill, I whipped out the CD while we were walking out of the store and she freaked while screaming a few loving words along the lines of "you idiot". Dont worry, the relationship we have is complex. You wouldnt understand. She digs me. Heh B-)

The bag I bought was pretty neat and worth it too. I got a free handphone strap along with it. Oh joy -_- but yeah, its big, its brown and it has many many compartments along with hidden compartments. I can store my whole room in it and still not complain about its weight cos the straps are padded. Which means, I dont have any shoulder cramps what-so-ever!! OH YEAH!

I actually had a very very busy day planned for tomorrow but Im thinking of foregoing the middle part of it cos I can do it next week. But thats not a very good idea but I just dont want to do it tomorrow. I mean, if I DO do it, I'll be so tired before I get to work and I doubt I can withstand the first 4 hours of work when I know I have 6 more to go =/ Not cool. Not cool at all. But I will try. I have classes at 8 am and its about the environment. Why I chose that class? Because I care for the environment!! Also, the teacher has the same name as a close friend of mine :P I know, Im an idiot but hey, at least Im doing something Im partially passionate about. That HAS to count for something. Hm, if I do complete that side task tomorrow, I get to use my new kick-ass bag.....should I do it? Or shouldnt I? Hm.......tough tough choice. Meh, I'll sleep on it.

* To do or not to do....that is THE question *

Take that Hamlet.

I did the happy dance today xD

Ever since school started, I've gone through quite a number of revelations. Actually, the revelations started when the term break started. Its just the ones over the past few days have had more impact on me than the ones during the holidays cos I was too busy with work to worry about anything else. One thing that hit me really hard was the fact that I did put on weight even when I was working non-stop. Maybe I've been eating alot under all that stress from work, that I did put on a kilo or two over the past month. Kinda depressing to think about it but I can always lose it and keep it off with exercise, which is something I havent done in a while apart from lifting heavy things just to keep my muscles there and my arms firm *LOL* Yeah, I love my muscles. Still do. Would never trade them for anything. Would trade them for thinner arms, though :P

Anyone want to be my exercise buddy? I mean, we will just do cardio-based exercises. Nothing else. After we run, you can go take a shower while I hit the gym and do afew toning exercises for my arms and thighs. Hm, maybe I should start going to the gym after school on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. I mean I dont plan on working those days of the week so I might as well dedicate it to some healthy activity at the gym and then go home to study right? I think its good plan. I can actually lose 4 kilos in 2 months if I keep at it. Guess I've got my schedule planned out :) Hot body, here I come. You cant run from me.

Oh, Fitri and I found a stranded handphone on the bus yesterday and Im gonna return it to the owner today. Thing is, I dont know his name nor do I have any form of identification. All I know is that he has a security code for him phone so no one can switch it on after the battery dies and also he will pick it up from the police post in Sembawang this evening. So, before I head down to town with Chantel, I have to drop by the police post first. Oh well, its up to him to pick it up then *shrug* I did my part as a good and honest citizen.

Friday is gonna be hell for me. I will not be home for a whole 24hrs because I've got classes at 8am and then I have to go down to Temasek Poly to get my registration forms and after that Im covering a 10hr shift at United Square. I'll only be home at 4 or 5 am, on a Saturday morning. Saturday shows no mercy either cos Im working from 4 - 1am at Marina Square. Thank God I have my Sunday off or else I'll be even more sick than I am now. Also, Thank God David doesnt know Im working cos I've been sick for the past week and am kinda having some difficulties hearing with my left ear. So, he has been on my case, poking me to go see a doctor <_< Honey, I WILL see a doctor. Just stop nagging me to do so. I'll be FINE.

I think I got high yesterday night. I was having a splitting headache and took 3 panadols plus some cough syrup before I headed off to bed at around 11:30 *gasp* YES, I WENT TO BED THAT EARLY, and around 2am, I started feeling really funny. It was as if my body was all relaxed and my brain had a very floaty sorta feeling..... I was feeling light-headed and unusually happy. So, I *THINK* I was high. It was nice while it lasted. Dont intend to get high in the near future. I just lied through my straight teeth.

My parents and I were watching "Sister Act 2" yesterday on Star Movies (God bless them for having kick-ass movies) and one of the characters forged her signature so that she could enter a competition. My parents then asked me whether I've done such a thing before and I just smiled cos I remember doing it a couple of times in primary school. Heck, I even helped forge my friend's parents signatures for them :P I didnt forge their signatures on my report cards or books but it was merely on small things like workbooks, tests and files where we file up all our worksheets and stuff. I got screwed really badly when one of the signatures looked like crap and my teacher kept me back for a whole hour just to yell at me. As in REALLY yell at me. In front of the other teachers. I was such a rebel. I was like, the total opposite of my sister. She was a prefect and a good student and had the respect of all the teachers. I was.....the rebellious little sister. Thats all I remember. Even if I went back today, they would remember my sister's name and not mine. People have a habit of not remembering me. Kinda sad but hey, not everyone wins in life. Im one of the losers in this God forsaken human cestpool.

* I dont wanna be anything other than me *

I did the happy dance today xD

I did the happy dance today xD